It became care person and lost the thing which I got

I was care person if I noticed. Oh, even Mullah is not Euler in Bemular either and seems to say care person.
Japanese

There seems to be association of Japanese care person, too.
care person has a person needing care in everyday life close and says people supporting it. I seem to be care person somehow or other. There is the person whom I reminded of it. It is hard to be serious.
I cannot talk about the contents of the care. Because it is to belong to privacy. But will I talk as far as I can show it? It is one factor that a wall of this privacy corners care person in. Because it shows appearances commonly. It may be to but be devoted to care to see it commonly. It is 15 years after the long long care life reached switch. This almost overlaps with my occupation life. In fact, it is not so clear how long it became care person. Such as about 19 years old feel like, and feel so. The role as the balancer in the family just founded a way to care person all too soon. That means, I think that I may say.

“My normal did not have the normal of the world”.

Continue being worn out for the role in families, and is proper; was not able to find a job. I found a job once, but stopped it in just a little over one year. I did not turn and was not able to have passion toward work. There was not energy anymore. This may be a simple excuse. Because I shook off a family if I appeared in the society and was able to find a job. But I was not able to speak it. It will be the first minus of this having been care person. It leaves a trail in now, but is unavoidable.
There was the encounter with the wife 15 years ago. The encounter of 25-year-old me and wife who came down helplessly. I think that I changed slowly slowly from there. Anyway, whatever you do, it takes time. I think that, as a result, it would change one’s heart.

As a temporary worker of the social welfare corporation, I worked as a member of support of the mentally-disabled person once. It was quite fun, but a salary was low and it was temporary and said to the last that it was a filler before looking for a proper workplace. Therefore I challenged it from there. As a result, I failed. Because it was employing mercenaries business as the irregular employment, I am fired if work disappears even if I give a result to a cuttlefish. By Lehman shock of 2009, it became running out of a contract tragically. There is no security as ever. care person does not have money. I am short fatally. After all this will become do not have place social understanding clogged up.

I work by work of the care from there approximately eight and a half years and lead in now. The workplace is changed. The present job is the third.

The one which continues working of the care thinks that this will be because there is a base as care person somehow or other. Because I do it almost every day even if walk assistance one thinks about a very barrier-free route when going out, a difference appears with the person doing only work of the care. But I of I may be saved in its own right because the know-how obtained in the workplace is usable in a house. You may think about this in a plus. There are various changes in 15 years. As for the barrier-free facilities as for the reaction of the world. I may vividly feel it.

After all the necessary thing thinks whether it is existence of the work that I can earn while caring for care person. Because the barrier-free facilities were set considerably, there is quite much that it is possible for “solution on Friday”. But, by the present Japanese system, the human being who cannot participate in membership is removed automatically. Japan is a reason to be said to be huge irregularity society. In other words it is social ostracism from a beginning. There is not to be me in the world public anymore. It may be comfortable, but after all may be troubled in its own right. It becomes the premise that a family takes care of the welfare system of this country. I give the service that it is hard to use and come true and think that it will be the biggest cause. There is the ideology called the simple family, and all the things against it think that it lays distress of care person to support.

If it is the principle of application because the welfare system is a government office and does not take out SOS, nothing moves. This is an element tormenting care person again. There would not be it without a suit even if I took any disadvantage. This is terrible; hand giving up. A bad smell rises even if I died in loneliness and is left unattended without the suit from the neighborhood. There is the man of the prime of life in particular beyond the welfare system of this country. It may be that there is freedom to die by the roadside.

It is that there is a lot of danger that care person is removed easily, and enters the lonely air pocket. Therefore I think the action to have to go carefully.
As for my life, I reached a turn-round. Double care is waiting to the destination. It is the future when I cannot move this and the certainty is high. I throw all away and escape or will come over unless I do whether you die. I make preparations appropriate as possible and want to prove right. It may be intellect , contingency of the double care whether it begins if I think.

I am enriched, and can you shelve whether you finish the life as a victim? It depends on action in the future.

I did such a quiet readiness in morning of the new moon.